Monday, March 26, 2012

Before She Died-Karen Chase

Before She Died-Karen Chase

When I look at the sky now, I look at it for you.
As if with enough attention, I could take it in for you.

With all the leaves gone almost from
the trees, I did not walk briskly through the field.

Late today with my dog Wool, I lay down in the upper field,
he panting and aged, me looking at the blue. Leaning

on him, I wondered how finite these lustered days seem
to you, A stand of hemlock across the lake catches

my eye. It will take a long time to know how it is
for you. Like a dog's lifetime -- long -- multiplied by sevens.

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The poem, Before She Died by Karen Chase, is a poem written by the author to someone she had dearly loved but has now passed away. To take a more technical look at this poem, I will like to look at each line of the poem to see what the author meant in this poem. The first line of the poem is “When I look at the sky now, I look at it for you.” The author is possibly reminded of the one that died. She is reminded of the person whenever she looks at the sky. The second line is “As if with enough attention, I could take it in for you.” Here, the author means that if she thinks about the person with enough attention, she is able to find the person. The next line is “With all the leaves gone almost from the trees,” which shows that it is autumn. Just like the leaves are falling from the trees, so is her memory of the person that died. “I did not walk briskly through the field” is the next line that shows that the author is moving with a heavy heart. Although her loved one has died, she is unable to let her go in her heart. The next line is “Late today with my dog Woo, I lay down in the upper field.” In this line, the author introduces her dog.  In the line “he panting and aged, me looking at the blue,” I am able to imagine a girl and a dog, an old dog, together in an open field looking up at the clear, blue sky. The author mentions that the dog is old, possibly showing that time has passed since her loved one died. “Leaning on him, I wondered how finite these lustered days seem to you” is the next line that shows that although life for the author seems endless and long, to the dead, time has no meaning. “A stand of hemlock across the lake catches my eye.” A hemlock is a poisonous plant that may have reminded the author of her loved one. In the last stanza, the author says, “It will take a long time to know how it is for you.” She compares how different it is for the dead and for those alive. “Like a dog’s lifetime-long-multiplied by seven” is the last line of this poem. The author means that never in her lifetime would she understand how her loved one is living because she is dead. There is no rhyme in this poem which can show how the author wanted to show a more informal type of speech, holding some kind of freedom.  

Monday, March 12, 2012

The Collar-George Herbert

I struck the board, and cried "No more!
I will abroad.
What, shall I ever sigh and pine?
My lines and life are free; free as the road,
Loose as the wind, as large as store.
Shall I be still in suit?
Have I no harvest but a thorn
To let me blood, and not restore
What I have lost with cordial fruit?
Sure there was wine
Before my sighs did dry it; there was corn
Before my tears did drown it.
Is the year only lost to me?
Have I no bays to crown it?
No flowers, no garlands gay? all blasted?
All wasted?
Not so, my heart: but there is fruit,
And thou hast hands.
Recover all thy sigh-blown age
On double pleasures: leave thy cold dispute
Of what is fit, and not. Forsake thy cage,
Thy rope of sands,
Which petty thoughts have made, and made to thee
Good cable, to enforce and draw,
And be thy law,
While thou didst wink and wouldst not see.
Away; take heed:
I will abroad.
Call in thy death's head there: tie up thy fears.
He that forbears
To suit and serve his need,
Deserves his load."
But as I raved and grew more fierce and wild
At every word,
Methoughts I heard one calling "Child!"
And I replied "My Lord".
The Collar by George Herbert is a religious poem about a man who feels like he has
had enough of being submissive to the Lord's Will. The man is very "fierce and wild" as
he questions the Lord, wondering why he has to live like this. However, when he
hears the Lord calling him, he is able to return to the Lord. I am able to directly relate to this
poem because at times, I also face difficulties in my walk as a Christian. At times of trouble,
I feel like letting go and living a free life. Herbert says that "My lines and life are free,
free as the road, Loose as the wind, as large as store." There are times when I believe that
if I didn't live my life as a Christian, I would feel like my life was free and I was free to
do whatever I wanted. Herbert also says, "Forsake thy cage, Thy rope of sands."
I sometimes feel as if I am caged and roped, restrained from doing what I desire.
When my spiritual walk becomes tough, I want to break free from it (free from the cage). Just like
Herbert says in the poem, the time that I spend with God can sometimes seem as if it
was "all blasted" and "all wasted." I doubt God and wonder if what he trying to work
within me is actually happening. When things don't go my way, I become enraged and
put the fault on God, questioning why He didn't let it flow my way.
There are times when I yell, "No more" and promise myself that I will not follow God's
way but live my way. There is frustration and I become more aggressive
towards life, wanting to block out what God is trying to tell me. This is exactly how Herbert felt.
However, when I remember the first time I heard God's voice,
the first time I felt him come inside my heart, warming me and renewing me
(a spiritual rebirth; going back to innocence), I choose to go back to God. This is similar to
Herbert, who was in conflict between living a secular life away from God because
of the constraints he felt and continuing to live a religious life. However, at
the time he "raved and grew more fierce and wild at every word," Herbert
was able to hear God calling him, and allowed himself to once again be submissive
to God's authority. Another poem I was able to relate this poem to was John Donne's
Holy Sonnet 14. In Holy Sonnet 14, Donne pleas to the Lord that He will "make
me new." Donne confesses that he loves the Lord but is confused because of "your enemy"
whom we can say is Satan. Just like in The Collar, Holy Sonnet 14 is a poem
about instability within someone's life, but ultimately continuing to love the Lord.